In this posting, I'm going to talk about Christmas last year. For most habitancy this is a time to celebrate and reflect back on all the good times we shared throughout the year. But for us, Christmas 2010 was not like any we'd had before.
It was our first Christmas with the diagnosis of Asperger's. The diagnosis did help construe why Jacob didn't like the holiday so much. It was the anxiety and lack of control. Jacob still has gifts from last year he hasn't opened. The day started out as usual, all of us in the living room, exchanging gifts. It was almost 10Am when I decided to get us coffee. I'm surprised I even go to Timmie's now. When I was coming home I noticed police cruisers had set up a type of perimeter in my neighbourhood. I concept what could be happening today? Then I saw the police cruiser by my house. I concept it was for a neighbour or something. It wasn't until I saw my wife Shannon's face. I felt sick. I knew the tragedy wasn't happening to a neighbour, it was happening to my family.
I don't think you can tell, but I needed some time to relax after typing that last paragraph. I haven't shared those details with anyone outside my family.
